Meet me halfway.

I really hope nothing will happen to me and the others , i wanna continue studying .
I regret what i had done , i won't repeat the same mistakes again .
God , please give me a chance to prove to people out there that i really can change to be a better person . I'm not just using my mouth to say that i regret and want to change , i really am and i will change ! I'm not changing myself for anyone , i'm changing for my own benefit .
I'm going to start changing from always late to school to punctual , stop scolding vulgarities , not getting influenced by others so easily , try to quit smoking , my way of walking , most importantly my studies . I'm 16 already , sometimes its better to be on low profile . Not going to create anymore trouble , unless its for brothers and sisters or the ones i love .
Have been through lots of ups and downs , don't wish to go through the dark path again .
All i want to do and concentrate on is : basketball and studies . Change myself to be a better person in life (:

To someone who is important in my life - I'm really very disappointed in you , what caused your change of attitude towards me ? Do i deserve this kind of treatment ? You made me cried like a fool , in the past you were very caring towards me . Now ? Tell me that you will only be like this for a period of time , not for life please . You were the first who gave my life hopes , gave my life smiles . Now you're doing this to me , what do you want me to do before treating me like how you always do in the past ? I still want you to know , no matter what . You're always important to me ...

What you all are doing to me now were exactly like them .
I'm going through what i felt in the past .
Nobody understands this fucking feeling three times in my fucked up life .
Being the good guy is not always a wise thing to do , always trying but never enough .
Always trying to help you guys solve problems , what about my problems ?
No one was there , nobody trust me when things happened .
Seems like i'm the only one who trust all of you , only some of you trust me but not all .
Two words , Fucked up .
I'm not being angry or whatever , just kinda disappointed .

She's the only one who will always be there , she's the only one who truly understands me .
For everything i do , she was always there and understands why i did something .
She understands , she gave me support , gave me everything i needed .
Gave me care , love .
Almost everything , none has ever went to such an extent to care for me .
I'm grateful , girl you should know who you are . Ash*
I love you .

this time , its for real .
i won't patch again .
i'm sorry girl , sorry for making you miserable these few days .
please promise me you won't do anything to yourself , won't cut , won't drink too much , won't pg .
i love you , i'll lend you my shoulders if you need . take good care of yourself .
lastly , don't do anything bad with other guys .

Seow Yongxin , i love you (:
don't leave me hor , if not i really don't want talk to you already .
haha , just wanna last with you la (:
thanks , i love you to the max !

try putting yourself in my shoes , try being treated like the way you're treating me now .
then you'll fully understand how it feels being treated like this .
you made me fear of saying things , doing things . i'm afraid i would say something wrong or do something wrong , i don't want to be ignored by you again .
if you think letting you go is an easy thing , let me tell you it ain't that easy .
told you my feelings for you are just way too deep already , if i am able to let you go i would've done so .
i love you , don't ask me to love someone else please .

Life , what is life ?

Xiaogrey's back .
i'm sorry girl , really sorry .
maybe i shouldn't talk to you when you just woke up , its all my fault .
sorry ya ? i love you .
please forgive me ):

life sucks man , seriously .
no matter what i do , its wrong .
always wrong , i'm always making her pissed ):
SORRY !!!

people , i'm going to disappear for a short period of time .
i'll just mia from those other than my brothers and sisters .
Girl , if you need someone i'll always be there for you .
Remember , i love you and my love will always remain the same .